In the mid to late 1990's I did thought I met my true love. Her name is Janna Kay. We were best of friends before we ever got together. We finally started dating and got married in 1996. In 2001 we had our baby boy. It was the greatest gift I ever received becoming a new Daddy. Things seem to be going good and at the time, I thought this was going to be the person I was going to grow old with any die with. So much for that happy ending. She was 18 and I was 23 when we got married. Even though things didn't work out, I don't regret marrying her. She brought colors into my life that I've never seen before and I can honestly say, she was the only person I have completely love.
I guess with all young married couples, it always starts out like paradise. First few years was great, but (it seem) without warning, things just started falling apart. We both made mistakes in the marriage. Instead of leaning on each other in trouble times she leaned on someone else and had an affair (with her sister's boyfriend's brother) and for me, I just completely shut down and built a wall around me and refused to allow anyone to get in. Of course (I can say this now) If only I know then what I know now, things would and could have been better. But it seems once things started falling a part, we waited to long to try and fix what has been broken and things were just unfix able.
Of course not trying to make this sound one sided, But I really did try and make things work. It was really hard because I was the only one that was still trying to make things work. She just completely gave up and stop trying altogether. And if you know how a marriage works, if one person is trying and the other isn't, then it's just like trying to swim up the river with one arm and one leg. your never going to get nowhere.
With everything going on (our life, the affair, our problems, Family etc) I still never gave up hope that if we just stuck together and kept fighting, we would make it). But I guess it wasn't in the card for the marriage to work.
She finally left me in February 2006. When she did leave me, She told me she didn't love me anymore she didn't even want our son. She told me that she needed to go and find herself and that she wanted me to keep our son so she could be on her own for a little while. Of course I keep our son, because I loved him so much and there was no way I was going to give up on him for the way things had turned out between me and her. But needless to say ....
With of all the problems we had and me still having hope after she left we can still find a way to keep fighting, It completely broke my heart when I had to find out through a friend she was already in a relationship with another person 2 weeks after we separated. To make things ever more hard, She wrote me a letter 9 months being separated that she was pregnant by the person she was dating. All this time (by law) we were still married. But that was it for me. I still didn't want to accept it, But I knew in my heart, Weather I liked it or not, the marriage was over.
So I just completely give up as well and focus all my time and energy on my son.
I left our house in Cedar Creek and move to a small apartment in Austin.
Mean while, she didn't talk to us every often (I'm guessing she was busy with her other family)
We finally got divorced June 21st 2010. But even though she completely moved on with her life she still fought in divorce court saying I owed her half of everything. (that's why the divorce took so long to become final). The sad thing is she wasn't fighting for our son. She was fighting for the money and the house and land and etc. She wanted half of all that. Thank goodness she didn't get what she was asking for. Unlike her, I didn't really care about the house or the land or the money. My number one priority was my son. That was who I was fighting for. For the money and the house and etc, I didn't care much for it, I just didn't want to see her get it. Might sound mean, But that's how I felt about it.
I am happy that the Judge saw things in my favor. I got custody of my son and she just has visitation rights. She is kind'da pissed because the court ordered her to pay me child support and 50% of all his medical cost. She didn't leave empty handed though, the Judge awarded her $20,000. All I can say now is I just hope she enjoys it, because that's all she will ever get from me.
My final thoughts about it all is I really wish it didn't have to get as dirty as it did. In no way did I ever wanted things to turn out like this. I wish things ended on a better note, But I am just glad it's over and we both can just get on with our lives.
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