My Little Boy
My little man
Friday, July 30, 2010
Rock Paper Scissors
I understand how scissors can beat paper, and I get how a rock can beat scissors, But there is no fucking way paper can beat rock. Is paper supposed to magically wrap around a rock and leave it immobile? Why the hell can't paper do this to people? Why aren't sheets of collage rule notebook paper constantly suffocating students as they take notes in class? I'll tell you why, Because paper can't beat anybody. A rock would tear that shit up in 2 seconds. When I play rock paper scissors, I always choose rock. Then when somebody claims to have beaten me with their paper, I can punch them in the face with my already made clenched fist and say, oh shit, I'm sorry, I thought paper would protect you, You asshole.
Sunday, July 25, 2010
courtroom Q&A.. too funny
Lawyer: "Doctor, before you performed the autopsy, did
you check for a pulse?" Witness: "No." Lawyer: "Did you
check for blood pressure?" Witness: "No." Lawyer: "Did
you check for breathing?" Witness: "No." Lawyer: "So,
then it is possible that the patient was alive when you
began the autopsy?" Witness: "No." Lawyer: "How can
you be so sure, Doctor?" Witness: "Because his brain was
sitting on my desk in a jar." Lawyer: "But could the patient
have still been alive nevertheless?" Witness: "Yes, it is
possible that he could have been alive and practicing law
somewhere."
you check for a pulse?" Witness: "No." Lawyer: "Did you
check for blood pressure?" Witness: "No." Lawyer: "Did
you check for breathing?" Witness: "No." Lawyer: "So,
then it is possible that the patient was alive when you
began the autopsy?" Witness: "No." Lawyer: "How can
you be so sure, Doctor?" Witness: "Because his brain was
sitting on my desk in a jar." Lawyer: "But could the patient
have still been alive nevertheless?" Witness: "Yes, it is
possible that he could have been alive and practicing law
somewhere."
Sunday, July 11, 2010
Call Log 6/29/10 - 7/10/10
JULY 10, 2010
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Days and the events leading up taking Jacob Jr to him moms on July 1st through July 31st 2010
June 25th 2010
I decided that since Janna has no contact information (home phone or cell phone) I would get Jacob Jr a cell phone to take with him over to his mom’s so I’d have a way of always getting a hold of him.
I ordered Jacob a cell phone from AT&T.com on my account so he was able to always contact me anytime he wanted while at his mom’s (and so I can contact him anytime as well).
I ordered Jacob Jr’s phone from AT&T.com on June 25th, 2010, it was shipped out on June 26th, 2010
Jacob Jr’s phone arrived in the mail on June 28th 2010.
The phone was the Blue Pantech Reveal and it was bought brand new.
From June 28th, 2010 to June 30th, 2010, Myself, Phuong and Sarah Tran (Jacob’s Godparents) went though all the phone features with Jacob Jr so he would know how to work things on his own. In a short time, he was calling other family members (Heather Davis, Amanda Holland and few other family members with the phone. Not only was able to understand how to make calls, he was also able to text message as well.
In such a short time, he got it all down. He understand how to make a call, end a call even send text messages. He was even able on his own to change ringtones and all the other features without any help from me.
We all (Me, Sarah and Phuong Tran) explain how the phone wasn’t a toy and he was to treat it with respect. As we watched him the next couple days, he was doing a good job taking care of it. For the most part, Jacob knew how to operate his phone on his own and didn’t need any help for us.
Jacob calls me on June 29th, 2010 @ 3:18pm while I was at work and he was with Uncle Phuong. He left me a voice mail.
July 1st, 2010 @6pm I drop Jacob off with him mom from the parking lot at HEB in Elgin, Texas.
Jacob’s Call log (with a record of this all on my iphone)
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Jacob calls me on July 1st, 2020 @ 9:44pm (3 hours after I have already dropped him off with his mom (Janna Cashion). I was already in bed, so when he called he left me a voice mail to call him back.
I call Jacob back on July 2, 2010 and talked a little while. He told me he wasn’t feeling so good and I ask what was the matter? All he could say was it felt like he was getting a cold and he felt really cold.
We talk back and forth from July 2 to July 3rd several time throughout these two days. He sounded like he did have a cold from me hearing him on the phone. I could tell his voice was really scratchy and his nose was running. I ask if he was talking medicine and he said his mom was giving him motrin and benadrly. Ask him if he was feeling any better and he said not really.
I tried contacting Jacob on the 4th and 5th of July but I didn’t get no answer each time and left him voice mails to call me when he can because I wanted to know if he was feeling any better.
I didn’t hear anything from him till July 6th @ 10:47am. (I was at work and was unable to pick up the phone). He left me a voice mail and he was telling me that he was sick and he ask me, when I come and pick him up, Can I please take him to the doctor.
I tried calling on my lunch break but didn’t get an answer and left a voice mail for him to call me back.
Jacob Jr calls me again (while I am at work) @ 2:08pm and was unable to pick up the phone due to me being at work. He leaves me a voice mail that really upsets me. He’s crying, he sounds really sick and telling me he love me and misses me and needs to talk.
I call him the minute I get off work around 3:30pm on July 6th, 2010. I finally got to talk to him and he tells me he really feels bad. I ask him why your mom hasn’t taken you to see a doctor yet since you have been feeling bad for several days? He told me -word for word- “I don’t want to waste my mom’s money.” I ask him, where did he hear that from? he couldn’t give me an answer and at that point I ask Jacob to please put his mom on the phone (Janna Cashion). I ask Janna where did he get “I don’t want to waste my mom’s money” from? All she could tell me was he was making that up. She said it’s a bug going around. I ask her to tell me when he started feeling bad. She told me around the 4th of July, he was throwing up and was unable to keep anything down. I ask what medicines are you giving him? She told me she was giving him Children motrin and Benadrly. I got on the internet and come to find out that children Tylenol, Children motrin and children Benadryl all had been recalled nation wide. I explain to her that these medicines were under a nation wide recall and that you couldn’t even buy these
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medicines in stores due to the recall. She said it was some of her daughter’s old medicine and that the medicine was fine. I then ask her to please check the LOT number on the medicine to make sure and she said I was making a big fuss out of nothing. She then come to tell me that he has had high fever from the 4th to the 6th of July and it would go down a little but then come right back up and most of the time it stayed at or around 101˚ and got as high as for 102˚ for several hours.
At this point I was mad because she hadn’t taking him to the doctor just to make sure things were fine. I told her she can even take him to the emergency room to get checked and just make sure he was fine. She had no excuse not to take him. When I dropped Jacob Jr off with her on July 1st, I gave her my extra set of heath insurance cards for Jacob Jr. All she would have had to pay was $40 co-pay and I would have been more then happy to pay half of it or even all of it just to have the peace of mind that he was ok and it was just a bug.
At this point she was yelling at me telling me I’m being over protective of Jacob and blowing everything out of proportion.
I told her that a high fever that wont go away usually means that your body telling you that something is wrong.
I was really mad at this point just because she was blowing it off as though it was just a common cold. I told her, you have his health insurance card from Aetna, take him to the doctor (weather it be a doctor’s office or the emergency room just to get checked out and make sure everything is ok. she still completely refused to take him to the doctor. I told her, it was going to be like this - either she was going to take him to the doctor or I was coming to get him and take him to the doctor myself. She completely blow up on me telling me that Jacob was in her care right now, she knows whats best and if I did show up to get him she would have me arrested for trespassing. Last thing she told me (or was yelling at me) was she was his mother too and that she knows whats best for him and told me to get over it and hung up on me.
It took me repeatedly calling Jacob’s number over and over about 10 times till Jacob finally answered the phone. I told him that I was just worried about him and wanted him to see a doctor just to make sure everything was ok. Right in the middle of us talking (Myself and Jacob Jr) he cuts in and says my mom says I have to go and he hung up before I could get another word in. I tried for the next 20 minutes calling him, but the phone must have been broken or turned of because when I dialed his number it wouldn’t ring, it would just go straight to voice mail. I left him several messages asking him to please call me. I never heard from him again.
I tried calling him number on July 7th, 8th, and 9th. I called at least once in the morning, afternoon and evening on the 7th, 8th and 9th but never got an answer and the phone always went straight to voice mail. I left several messages asking him to please call me as soon as possible.
On the 7th of July I just figure Janna was mad at me and just ignoring me because of the argument we have gotten into. Needless to say, I was completely upset and
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worrying by the evening time on July 8th when I still haven’t heard anything from Jacob Jr or Janna on the well being of Jacob Jr.
On July 8th, I was ready to hop in my truck over there to check on him myself (I would have done it regardless if I got arrested for trespassing or not) But the address that Janna had give me to where she was staying was not an address. 6201 Farm Road 141, Giddings, Texas. 78942 is the address she gave me and have a saved voice mail from Janna giving me that address. I was mad to find out I couldn’t even go check on him myself because I really don’t have no earthly idea where she could be. I called the Lee county sheriff's dept. and told them my story and what’s going on and gave the sheriff’s office the address that Janna had giving me and the sheriff’s office told me that it was not a correct address and they couldn’t find it anywhere in their data base. I tried doing a search with google maps and a couple other online map sites with the address and it all told me the same thing, Address could not be found. The sheriff’s office ask me if there was some other place she could be staying with Jacob Jr. I told them that the only person I could think of was her mother’s house. So I gave the sheriff’s office Janna’s mom’s address : 304 county road A, Lexington, Tx. 78747. They said they would send a sheriff out there to check and see if Jacob Jr was there and if he was there they would check the well being of the child.
I got a call back from the Lee County sheriff’s office about an hour or later and the sheriff dept. told me that Janna or Jacob Jr was not there and they talk to Diann Stutes (Janna’s mom) and she said told the sheriff’s dept. that Janna, Justin (Janna’s boyfriend), Allyssa (her other kid) and Jacob Jr left to go to the coast (Corpus Christi) on July 7th 2010.
My first thought was - Jacob Jr wasn’t feeling good the last time I talked to him, why in the hell would they go to the coast with him being sick?
At this point I didn’t know anything that was going on and it was driving me insane not know. I still repeatedly kept calling Jacob Jr’s phone and never getting an answer (and the phone would always go straight to voice mail. I still left messages to please call me as soon as possible just to let me know he was ok and at the least, feeling better.
I called Heather Davis on July 8th at about 5:48pm She is (Our Friend and the person Jacob is getting tutoring by) And she told me she has been trying to reach them for over a week to set up his tutoring session (was an order of the court that Janna take Jacob Jr to “at least” one tutoring session a week while he was staying with her). But Heather told me she left messages asking for a call back to set up the time and place of tutoring but never got a responses from Janna.
I called Amanda Holland also on the 8th of July about 6:30pm (Also a friend of mine and she is married to Janna’s brother, Randy Holland). I ask her if she heard from Janna or Jacob and if there was any way I can get in contact with Janna? She said she had no idea how to get a hold of them and she (as well) tried calling Jacob Jr’s phone and didn’t get an answer and she left a voice mail to call her back as soon as he can.
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I also tried calling Janna’s mom’s number but could never reach anyone. It would ring a couple of times and someone would pick up the phone and then hang it back up. I tried several times with no luck getting a hold of anyone.
By now it’s the 9th of July and still haven’t heard anything from nobody. From the 6th of July to the 10th of July I still haven’t heard anything from nobody. At about 12:30pm I get a voice mail from Jacob Jr calling me from Janna’s mom’s house. Needless to say, I was happy to hear his voice and find out that he was ok. From the message he left me, he still sounded sick, but he didn’t sound as bad as what he did before. I was just getting off work and called him back as soon as I got home. I ask where has he been? and he couldn’t give me a straight answer, just telling me he caught some fish, he loved and miss me and that he was feeling better.
I ask him what happen to his phone and he said it’s broke. I ask him how did it get broke and he couldn’t give me an answer to that either, he just said the phone stop working and the phone wouldn’t turn on anymore. I ask for him to please put his mom on the phone and she completely refuse to talk to me. I could hear her in the back ground telling Jacob to tell me “She don’t want to talk to me. I ask Jacob to please tell his mom that when they meet Heather Davis for the tutoring to please bring his phone so I can get it and get it replaced. I heard Janna in the back ground saying “You will get the phone when you get it”, (saying it very rudely). I ask Jacob where the phone was right now and he said at maw maw’s house. (I’m guess that would be Justin’s mother’s house. He said that his phone was there since it stop working. I still wanted to talk to Jacob, but he told me that his mom said he had to hang up because they were leaving Janna’s mom’s house and going home. I told him to please call me again soon, and we hung up.
My thoughts of Jacob Jr’s phone breaking is, it’s funny the phone worked just fine and I talked to Jacob Jr once a day, then on July 6th, Me and Janna get in a heated argument on the phone about weather or not Jacob needs to see a doctor because he was sick. Right after the argument me and Janna had on the phone was the point where I couldn’t reach him on his phone any longer. And didn’t hear from him again till July 10th when he call me from Janna’s mom’s house. I don’t believe what so ever it’s coincidence that on the day me and Janna has a heated argument on the phone and then all of a sudden, his phone becomes broke and don’t work no more. I am sorry but this completely sounds FISHY to me!
Mine and Jacob’s Call log from June 29th, 2010 to July 10th 2010
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June 29, 2010 outgoing call @ 12:44pm lasted for 7 seconds
incoming call @ 3:16pm Missed call
outgoing call @ 8:36pm lasted 3 seconds
outgoing call @ 5:38pm call cancelled
outgoing call @ 5:37pm lasted 2 seconds
outgoing call @ 4:50pm lasted 23 seconds
July 1st, 2010 @ 6pm Drop Jacob off with his mom.
July 1, 2010 @5:52pm incoming call lasted for 8 minutes
@ 9:43pm incoming call (missed)
July 2, 2010
@8:35pm outgoing call lasted 3 minutes
@8:32pm outgoing call lasted 2 minutes
@4:32pm outgoing call lasted 37 seconds
@4:34pm incoming call lasted 4 minutes
July 3,2010
@8:31pm incoming call last 39 seconds
@1:03pm incoming call last 1 minute
@8:09am incoming call last 4 minutes
July 6, 2010
@ 10:46am incoming call Missed call (Jacob Jr left me a voice mail saying he was sick and wanted me to take him to the doctor)
@12:05am outgoing call lasted 8 minutes
@2:08pm incoming call missed call (Jacob Jr left me a voice mail crying and was completely upset)
@3:40pm outgoing call lasted 6 minutes
@4:22pm outgoing call lasted 9 minutes (this was me & Janna having an argument on the phone all about Jacob Jr being sick)
@4:45pm outgoing call lasted 5 minutes
@4:51pm outgoing call lasted 3 minutes
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July 7, 2010
@ 12:11pm outgoing call no answer / straight to voice mail. (I left him a voice mail)
@3:35pm outgoing call no answer / straight to voice mail (I left another voice mail)
@ 7:32pm outgoing call no answer / straight to voice mail (I left another voice mail)
July 8th, 2010
@ 5:37pm outgoing call no answer / straight to voice mail (I left a voice mail to please call me)
@ 6:05pm outgoing call no answer / straight to voice mail
@7:55pm outgoing call no answer / straight to voice mail
July 9th, 2010
@8:44am outgoing call no answer / straight to voice mail
@12:16pm outgoing call no answer / straight to voice mail
@ 3:37pm outgoing call no answer / straight to voice mail (left him a voice mail to please call me.)
July 9th, 2010
@6:24pm outgoing call no answer / straight to voice mail
@7:39pm outgoing call no answer / straight to voice mail
and like I said, I didn’t hear from him again till July 10th at about 12:30 pm when Jacob Jr called me from Janna’s mom’s house in Lexington Texas.
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Days and the events leading up taking Jacob Jr to him moms on July 1st through July 31st 2010
June 25th 2010
I decided that since Janna has no contact information (home phone or cell phone) I would get Jacob Jr a cell phone to take with him over to his mom’s so I’d have a way of always getting a hold of him.
I ordered Jacob a cell phone from AT&T.com on my account so he was able to always contact me anytime he wanted while at his mom’s (and so I can contact him anytime as well).
I ordered Jacob Jr’s phone from AT&T.com on June 25th, 2010, it was shipped out on June 26th, 2010
Jacob Jr’s phone arrived in the mail on June 28th 2010.
The phone was the Blue Pantech Reveal and it was bought brand new.
From June 28th, 2010 to June 30th, 2010, Myself, Phuong and Sarah Tran (Jacob’s Godparents) went though all the phone features with Jacob Jr so he would know how to work things on his own. In a short time, he was calling other family members (Heather Davis, Amanda Holland and few other family members with the phone. Not only was able to understand how to make calls, he was also able to text message as well.
In such a short time, he got it all down. He understand how to make a call, end a call even send text messages. He was even able on his own to change ringtones and all the other features without any help from me.
We all (Me, Sarah and Phuong Tran) explain how the phone wasn’t a toy and he was to treat it with respect. As we watched him the next couple days, he was doing a good job taking care of it. For the most part, Jacob knew how to operate his phone on his own and didn’t need any help for us.
Jacob calls me on June 29th, 2010 @ 3:18pm while I was at work and he was with Uncle Phuong. He left me a voice mail.
July 1st, 2010 @6pm I drop Jacob off with him mom from the parking lot at HEB in Elgin, Texas.
Jacob’s Call log (with a record of this all on my iphone)
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Jacob calls me on July 1st, 2020 @ 9:44pm (3 hours after I have already dropped him off with his mom (Janna Cashion). I was already in bed, so when he called he left me a voice mail to call him back.
I call Jacob back on July 2, 2010 and talked a little while. He told me he wasn’t feeling so good and I ask what was the matter? All he could say was it felt like he was getting a cold and he felt really cold.
We talk back and forth from July 2 to July 3rd several time throughout these two days. He sounded like he did have a cold from me hearing him on the phone. I could tell his voice was really scratchy and his nose was running. I ask if he was talking medicine and he said his mom was giving him motrin and benadrly. Ask him if he was feeling any better and he said not really.
I tried contacting Jacob on the 4th and 5th of July but I didn’t get no answer each time and left him voice mails to call me when he can because I wanted to know if he was feeling any better.
I didn’t hear anything from him till July 6th @ 10:47am. (I was at work and was unable to pick up the phone). He left me a voice mail and he was telling me that he was sick and he ask me, when I come and pick him up, Can I please take him to the doctor.
I tried calling on my lunch break but didn’t get an answer and left a voice mail for him to call me back.
Jacob Jr calls me again (while I am at work) @ 2:08pm and was unable to pick up the phone due to me being at work. He leaves me a voice mail that really upsets me. He’s crying, he sounds really sick and telling me he love me and misses me and needs to talk.
I call him the minute I get off work around 3:30pm on July 6th, 2010. I finally got to talk to him and he tells me he really feels bad. I ask him why your mom hasn’t taken you to see a doctor yet since you have been feeling bad for several days? He told me -word for word- “I don’t want to waste my mom’s money.” I ask him, where did he hear that from? he couldn’t give me an answer and at that point I ask Jacob to please put his mom on the phone (Janna Cashion). I ask Janna where did he get “I don’t want to waste my mom’s money” from? All she could tell me was he was making that up. She said it’s a bug going around. I ask her to tell me when he started feeling bad. She told me around the 4th of July, he was throwing up and was unable to keep anything down. I ask what medicines are you giving him? She told me she was giving him Children motrin and Benadrly. I got on the internet and come to find out that children Tylenol, Children motrin and children Benadryl all had been recalled nation wide. I explain to her that these medicines were under a nation wide recall and that you couldn’t even buy these
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medicines in stores due to the recall. She said it was some of her daughter’s old medicine and that the medicine was fine. I then ask her to please check the LOT number on the medicine to make sure and she said I was making a big fuss out of nothing. She then come to tell me that he has had high fever from the 4th to the 6th of July and it would go down a little but then come right back up and most of the time it stayed at or around 101˚ and got as high as for 102˚ for several hours.
At this point I was mad because she hadn’t taking him to the doctor just to make sure things were fine. I told her she can even take him to the emergency room to get checked and just make sure he was fine. She had no excuse not to take him. When I dropped Jacob Jr off with her on July 1st, I gave her my extra set of heath insurance cards for Jacob Jr. All she would have had to pay was $40 co-pay and I would have been more then happy to pay half of it or even all of it just to have the peace of mind that he was ok and it was just a bug.
At this point she was yelling at me telling me I’m being over protective of Jacob and blowing everything out of proportion.
I told her that a high fever that wont go away usually means that your body telling you that something is wrong.
I was really mad at this point just because she was blowing it off as though it was just a common cold. I told her, you have his health insurance card from Aetna, take him to the doctor (weather it be a doctor’s office or the emergency room just to get checked out and make sure everything is ok. she still completely refused to take him to the doctor. I told her, it was going to be like this - either she was going to take him to the doctor or I was coming to get him and take him to the doctor myself. She completely blow up on me telling me that Jacob was in her care right now, she knows whats best and if I did show up to get him she would have me arrested for trespassing. Last thing she told me (or was yelling at me) was she was his mother too and that she knows whats best for him and told me to get over it and hung up on me.
It took me repeatedly calling Jacob’s number over and over about 10 times till Jacob finally answered the phone. I told him that I was just worried about him and wanted him to see a doctor just to make sure everything was ok. Right in the middle of us talking (Myself and Jacob Jr) he cuts in and says my mom says I have to go and he hung up before I could get another word in. I tried for the next 20 minutes calling him, but the phone must have been broken or turned of because when I dialed his number it wouldn’t ring, it would just go straight to voice mail. I left him several messages asking him to please call me. I never heard from him again.
I tried calling him number on July 7th, 8th, and 9th. I called at least once in the morning, afternoon and evening on the 7th, 8th and 9th but never got an answer and the phone always went straight to voice mail. I left several messages asking him to please call me as soon as possible.
On the 7th of July I just figure Janna was mad at me and just ignoring me because of the argument we have gotten into. Needless to say, I was completely upset and
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worrying by the evening time on July 8th when I still haven’t heard anything from Jacob Jr or Janna on the well being of Jacob Jr.
On July 8th, I was ready to hop in my truck over there to check on him myself (I would have done it regardless if I got arrested for trespassing or not) But the address that Janna had give me to where she was staying was not an address. 6201 Farm Road 141, Giddings, Texas. 78942 is the address she gave me and have a saved voice mail from Janna giving me that address. I was mad to find out I couldn’t even go check on him myself because I really don’t have no earthly idea where she could be. I called the Lee county sheriff's dept. and told them my story and what’s going on and gave the sheriff’s office the address that Janna had giving me and the sheriff’s office told me that it was not a correct address and they couldn’t find it anywhere in their data base. I tried doing a search with google maps and a couple other online map sites with the address and it all told me the same thing, Address could not be found. The sheriff’s office ask me if there was some other place she could be staying with Jacob Jr. I told them that the only person I could think of was her mother’s house. So I gave the sheriff’s office Janna’s mom’s address : 304 county road A, Lexington, Tx. 78747. They said they would send a sheriff out there to check and see if Jacob Jr was there and if he was there they would check the well being of the child.
I got a call back from the Lee County sheriff’s office about an hour or later and the sheriff dept. told me that Janna or Jacob Jr was not there and they talk to Diann Stutes (Janna’s mom) and she said told the sheriff’s dept. that Janna, Justin (Janna’s boyfriend), Allyssa (her other kid) and Jacob Jr left to go to the coast (Corpus Christi) on July 7th 2010.
My first thought was - Jacob Jr wasn’t feeling good the last time I talked to him, why in the hell would they go to the coast with him being sick?
At this point I didn’t know anything that was going on and it was driving me insane not know. I still repeatedly kept calling Jacob Jr’s phone and never getting an answer (and the phone would always go straight to voice mail. I still left messages to please call me as soon as possible just to let me know he was ok and at the least, feeling better.
I called Heather Davis on July 8th at about 5:48pm She is (Our Friend and the person Jacob is getting tutoring by) And she told me she has been trying to reach them for over a week to set up his tutoring session (was an order of the court that Janna take Jacob Jr to “at least” one tutoring session a week while he was staying with her). But Heather told me she left messages asking for a call back to set up the time and place of tutoring but never got a responses from Janna.
I called Amanda Holland also on the 8th of July about 6:30pm (Also a friend of mine and she is married to Janna’s brother, Randy Holland). I ask her if she heard from Janna or Jacob and if there was any way I can get in contact with Janna? She said she had no idea how to get a hold of them and she (as well) tried calling Jacob Jr’s phone and didn’t get an answer and she left a voice mail to call her back as soon as he can.
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I also tried calling Janna’s mom’s number but could never reach anyone. It would ring a couple of times and someone would pick up the phone and then hang it back up. I tried several times with no luck getting a hold of anyone.
By now it’s the 9th of July and still haven’t heard anything from nobody. From the 6th of July to the 10th of July I still haven’t heard anything from nobody. At about 12:30pm I get a voice mail from Jacob Jr calling me from Janna’s mom’s house. Needless to say, I was happy to hear his voice and find out that he was ok. From the message he left me, he still sounded sick, but he didn’t sound as bad as what he did before. I was just getting off work and called him back as soon as I got home. I ask where has he been? and he couldn’t give me a straight answer, just telling me he caught some fish, he loved and miss me and that he was feeling better.
I ask him what happen to his phone and he said it’s broke. I ask him how did it get broke and he couldn’t give me an answer to that either, he just said the phone stop working and the phone wouldn’t turn on anymore. I ask for him to please put his mom on the phone and she completely refuse to talk to me. I could hear her in the back ground telling Jacob to tell me “She don’t want to talk to me. I ask Jacob to please tell his mom that when they meet Heather Davis for the tutoring to please bring his phone so I can get it and get it replaced. I heard Janna in the back ground saying “You will get the phone when you get it”, (saying it very rudely). I ask Jacob where the phone was right now and he said at maw maw’s house. (I’m guess that would be Justin’s mother’s house. He said that his phone was there since it stop working. I still wanted to talk to Jacob, but he told me that his mom said he had to hang up because they were leaving Janna’s mom’s house and going home. I told him to please call me again soon, and we hung up.
My thoughts of Jacob Jr’s phone breaking is, it’s funny the phone worked just fine and I talked to Jacob Jr once a day, then on July 6th, Me and Janna get in a heated argument on the phone about weather or not Jacob needs to see a doctor because he was sick. Right after the argument me and Janna had on the phone was the point where I couldn’t reach him on his phone any longer. And didn’t hear from him again till July 10th when he call me from Janna’s mom’s house. I don’t believe what so ever it’s coincidence that on the day me and Janna has a heated argument on the phone and then all of a sudden, his phone becomes broke and don’t work no more. I am sorry but this completely sounds FISHY to me!
Mine and Jacob’s Call log from June 29th, 2010 to July 10th 2010
JULY 10, 2010
PAGE 6
June 29, 2010 outgoing call @ 12:44pm lasted for 7 seconds
incoming call @ 3:16pm Missed call
outgoing call @ 8:36pm lasted 3 seconds
outgoing call @ 5:38pm call cancelled
outgoing call @ 5:37pm lasted 2 seconds
outgoing call @ 4:50pm lasted 23 seconds
July 1st, 2010 @ 6pm Drop Jacob off with his mom.
July 1, 2010 @5:52pm incoming call lasted for 8 minutes
@ 9:43pm incoming call (missed)
July 2, 2010
@8:35pm outgoing call lasted 3 minutes
@8:32pm outgoing call lasted 2 minutes
@4:32pm outgoing call lasted 37 seconds
@4:34pm incoming call lasted 4 minutes
July 3,2010
@8:31pm incoming call last 39 seconds
@1:03pm incoming call last 1 minute
@8:09am incoming call last 4 minutes
July 6, 2010
@ 10:46am incoming call Missed call (Jacob Jr left me a voice mail saying he was sick and wanted me to take him to the doctor)
@12:05am outgoing call lasted 8 minutes
@2:08pm incoming call missed call (Jacob Jr left me a voice mail crying and was completely upset)
@3:40pm outgoing call lasted 6 minutes
@4:22pm outgoing call lasted 9 minutes (this was me & Janna having an argument on the phone all about Jacob Jr being sick)
@4:45pm outgoing call lasted 5 minutes
@4:51pm outgoing call lasted 3 minutes
JULY 10, 2010
PAGE 7
July 7, 2010
@ 12:11pm outgoing call no answer / straight to voice mail. (I left him a voice mail)
@3:35pm outgoing call no answer / straight to voice mail (I left another voice mail)
@ 7:32pm outgoing call no answer / straight to voice mail (I left another voice mail)
July 8th, 2010
@ 5:37pm outgoing call no answer / straight to voice mail (I left a voice mail to please call me)
@ 6:05pm outgoing call no answer / straight to voice mail
@7:55pm outgoing call no answer / straight to voice mail
July 9th, 2010
@8:44am outgoing call no answer / straight to voice mail
@12:16pm outgoing call no answer / straight to voice mail
@ 3:37pm outgoing call no answer / straight to voice mail (left him a voice mail to please call me.)
July 9th, 2010
@6:24pm outgoing call no answer / straight to voice mail
@7:39pm outgoing call no answer / straight to voice mail
and like I said, I didn’t hear from him again till July 10th at about 12:30 pm when Jacob Jr called me from Janna’s mom’s house in Lexington Texas.
Monday, July 5, 2010
Update for today
Well I'm glad in a way that the 4th of July is over. Nothing really special happen last night. Just sat on the sofa watching the fireworks from the safety of my living room. I wanted to go out somewhere & maybe watch some fireworks in person but didn't feel like doing it solo so I just stayed home.
My neighbor's had a couple good firework shows. I just watched them from my back porch. It was nothing special, nothing like what you'd see over the town lake or in Time Square, But it was ok.
Glad I'm off of work today. Had Sunday and today off. It's back to business tomorrow though (UGH). I've got to go put some clothes in the washer so I have some work clothes to wear this week. I've got to get my butt in gear. Need to get out of this lazy mood I am in.
I haven't got to talk to my son yesterday or today. I'm hoping he will call me later today and let me how his 4th of July was. I miss him so much. He left July 1st to spend a month with him mom for the summer before he starts school in August. He hasn't been gone long, But it already seems that I haven't seen him in over a month. Seems when he's not here, time goes by slower then normal.
I set up an account on Match.com yesterday. Not sure it is a good idea or not. But I figure I would give it a try and see where it goes. I wish I could say that I was happy being single. That's not the case at all. In fact, many times throughout the day, it's very lonely and depressing.
I am not totally sure that I am ready to completely settle down and get married again. But I would just like to find someone that I could talk to and just become good friends and just take it from there.
I don't think these dating sites is for me. Dating and meeting new people is really hard and when you have my appearances, it's even more difficult. Being scared 78% of your body (which includes my hands and face) it's really hard to get people to see past the scars and see the person you truly are. When meeting people for the first time and of course trying out the dating scene first impressions are everything. 99% of the time, you are judged solely on appearance. And of course that's not good for me. Lot of times it's hard for people to get pass the scars and judge me on my personalities alone. Woman don't fall in love with guys like me unless they have known me for quite a while. There is no such thing as "love at first sight" for me.
So in a way, i guess dating sites are good for me in a way. It allows them to read about me first and come up with their own conclusions of me. But of course that still making it sound to easy to be true. I am still judged on the pictures they see on my profile.
Sometimes I dream That I was normal and I looked like everyone else. That I was able to walk into a place and just pick up any girl my heart desires. But that's not the case and it will never be the case. We live in a world that appearances is a top priority.
I know I need to just stop believing in those kinds of dreams because all that is going to happen is I'm going to keep being let down and get keep getting my feelings hurt over and over again. One of the other dreams I have is that people could see me as I see myself. I believe if that was the case, I would have girlfriends on top of girlfriends. When I look in the mirror, I don't see scars. I see the person I want to be. If only there was a way for me to get other people to notice me in that way, I will be ok. I am probably sounding a little selfish and have a little self pity going on right now. You might be right. Maybe I just need to stop everything all together and just considerate on the more important things in my life. I am just scared that I am going to wake up one day, completely old with hardly no more life in front of me and going to die an old lonely man. That is one of my worse fears I seem to face each and everyday.
Am I asking for to much? Am I setting the bar way to high for myself? I not asking that I become a player and have one night stand and booty calls and to be with a different woman each night. That's not my plans what so ever. I just want to be able to find true love. Find someone that can love me as hard as I can love them back. Someone that I able to love for the rest of my life and grow old with and just die happy. Is there such a thing to "die happy"?
Well, I'm off to do some laundry and clean up a bit. Thanks for listening to all my thoughts here. Take care and write more again in the next few days.
Sincerely,
Jay
My neighbor's had a couple good firework shows. I just watched them from my back porch. It was nothing special, nothing like what you'd see over the town lake or in Time Square, But it was ok.
Glad I'm off of work today. Had Sunday and today off. It's back to business tomorrow though (UGH). I've got to go put some clothes in the washer so I have some work clothes to wear this week. I've got to get my butt in gear. Need to get out of this lazy mood I am in.
I haven't got to talk to my son yesterday or today. I'm hoping he will call me later today and let me how his 4th of July was. I miss him so much. He left July 1st to spend a month with him mom for the summer before he starts school in August. He hasn't been gone long, But it already seems that I haven't seen him in over a month. Seems when he's not here, time goes by slower then normal.
I set up an account on Match.com yesterday. Not sure it is a good idea or not. But I figure I would give it a try and see where it goes. I wish I could say that I was happy being single. That's not the case at all. In fact, many times throughout the day, it's very lonely and depressing.
I am not totally sure that I am ready to completely settle down and get married again. But I would just like to find someone that I could talk to and just become good friends and just take it from there.
I don't think these dating sites is for me. Dating and meeting new people is really hard and when you have my appearances, it's even more difficult. Being scared 78% of your body (which includes my hands and face) it's really hard to get people to see past the scars and see the person you truly are. When meeting people for the first time and of course trying out the dating scene first impressions are everything. 99% of the time, you are judged solely on appearance. And of course that's not good for me. Lot of times it's hard for people to get pass the scars and judge me on my personalities alone. Woman don't fall in love with guys like me unless they have known me for quite a while. There is no such thing as "love at first sight" for me.
So in a way, i guess dating sites are good for me in a way. It allows them to read about me first and come up with their own conclusions of me. But of course that still making it sound to easy to be true. I am still judged on the pictures they see on my profile.
Sometimes I dream That I was normal and I looked like everyone else. That I was able to walk into a place and just pick up any girl my heart desires. But that's not the case and it will never be the case. We live in a world that appearances is a top priority.
I know I need to just stop believing in those kinds of dreams because all that is going to happen is I'm going to keep being let down and get keep getting my feelings hurt over and over again. One of the other dreams I have is that people could see me as I see myself. I believe if that was the case, I would have girlfriends on top of girlfriends. When I look in the mirror, I don't see scars. I see the person I want to be. If only there was a way for me to get other people to notice me in that way, I will be ok. I am probably sounding a little selfish and have a little self pity going on right now. You might be right. Maybe I just need to stop everything all together and just considerate on the more important things in my life. I am just scared that I am going to wake up one day, completely old with hardly no more life in front of me and going to die an old lonely man. That is one of my worse fears I seem to face each and everyday.
Am I asking for to much? Am I setting the bar way to high for myself? I not asking that I become a player and have one night stand and booty calls and to be with a different woman each night. That's not my plans what so ever. I just want to be able to find true love. Find someone that can love me as hard as I can love them back. Someone that I able to love for the rest of my life and grow old with and just die happy. Is there such a thing to "die happy"?
Well, I'm off to do some laundry and clean up a bit. Thanks for listening to all my thoughts here. Take care and write more again in the next few days.
Sincerely,
Jay
Wouldn't it be the perfect world ....
Wouldn't it be a perfect world if we were all selected for a relationships based solely on our personalities. I wish people would never be judged on your appearance and hopefully people will see beyond the scars and see you for the person you portray. Unfortunately you will come up against people who cannot or will not be able to do that. Never give up hope that the person willing to love you is out there and waiting somewhere. We all have the ability to love and be loved regardless of our appearance.
Sunday, July 4, 2010
My married life 1996 -2006
In the mid to late 1990's I did thought I met my true love. Her name is Janna Kay. We were best of friends before we ever got together. We finally started dating and got married in 1996. In 2001 we had our baby boy. It was the greatest gift I ever received becoming a new Daddy. Things seem to be going good and at the time, I thought this was going to be the person I was going to grow old with any die with. So much for that happy ending. She was 18 and I was 23 when we got married. Even though things didn't work out, I don't regret marrying her. She brought colors into my life that I've never seen before and I can honestly say, she was the only person I have completely love.
I guess with all young married couples, it always starts out like paradise. First few years was great, but (it seem) without warning, things just started falling apart. We both made mistakes in the marriage. Instead of leaning on each other in trouble times she leaned on someone else and had an affair (with her sister's boyfriend's brother) and for me, I just completely shut down and built a wall around me and refused to allow anyone to get in. Of course (I can say this now) If only I know then what I know now, things would and could have been better. But it seems once things started falling a part, we waited to long to try and fix what has been broken and things were just unfix able.
Of course not trying to make this sound one sided, But I really did try and make things work. It was really hard because I was the only one that was still trying to make things work. She just completely gave up and stop trying altogether. And if you know how a marriage works, if one person is trying and the other isn't, then it's just like trying to swim up the river with one arm and one leg. your never going to get nowhere.
With everything going on (our life, the affair, our problems, Family etc) I still never gave up hope that if we just stuck together and kept fighting, we would make it). But I guess it wasn't in the card for the marriage to work.
She finally left me in February 2006. When she did leave me, She told me she didn't love me anymore she didn't even want our son. She told me that she needed to go and find herself and that she wanted me to keep our son so she could be on her own for a little while. Of course I keep our son, because I loved him so much and there was no way I was going to give up on him for the way things had turned out between me and her. But needless to say ....
With of all the problems we had and me still having hope after she left we can still find a way to keep fighting, It completely broke my heart when I had to find out through a friend she was already in a relationship with another person 2 weeks after we separated. To make things ever more hard, She wrote me a letter 9 months being separated that she was pregnant by the person she was dating. All this time (by law) we were still married. But that was it for me. I still didn't want to accept it, But I knew in my heart, Weather I liked it or not, the marriage was over.
So I just completely give up as well and focus all my time and energy on my son.
I left our house in Cedar Creek and move to a small apartment in Austin.
Mean while, she didn't talk to us every often (I'm guessing she was busy with her other family)
We finally got divorced June 21st 2010. But even though she completely moved on with her life she still fought in divorce court saying I owed her half of everything. (that's why the divorce took so long to become final). The sad thing is she wasn't fighting for our son. She was fighting for the money and the house and land and etc. She wanted half of all that. Thank goodness she didn't get what she was asking for. Unlike her, I didn't really care about the house or the land or the money. My number one priority was my son. That was who I was fighting for. For the money and the house and etc, I didn't care much for it, I just didn't want to see her get it. Might sound mean, But that's how I felt about it.
I am happy that the Judge saw things in my favor. I got custody of my son and she just has visitation rights. She is kind'da pissed because the court ordered her to pay me child support and 50% of all his medical cost. She didn't leave empty handed though, the Judge awarded her $20,000. All I can say now is I just hope she enjoys it, because that's all she will ever get from me.
My final thoughts about it all is I really wish it didn't have to get as dirty as it did. In no way did I ever wanted things to turn out like this. I wish things ended on a better note, But I am just glad it's over and we both can just get on with our lives.
I guess with all young married couples, it always starts out like paradise. First few years was great, but (it seem) without warning, things just started falling apart. We both made mistakes in the marriage. Instead of leaning on each other in trouble times she leaned on someone else and had an affair (with her sister's boyfriend's brother) and for me, I just completely shut down and built a wall around me and refused to allow anyone to get in. Of course (I can say this now) If only I know then what I know now, things would and could have been better. But it seems once things started falling a part, we waited to long to try and fix what has been broken and things were just unfix able.
Of course not trying to make this sound one sided, But I really did try and make things work. It was really hard because I was the only one that was still trying to make things work. She just completely gave up and stop trying altogether. And if you know how a marriage works, if one person is trying and the other isn't, then it's just like trying to swim up the river with one arm and one leg. your never going to get nowhere.
With everything going on (our life, the affair, our problems, Family etc) I still never gave up hope that if we just stuck together and kept fighting, we would make it). But I guess it wasn't in the card for the marriage to work.
She finally left me in February 2006. When she did leave me, She told me she didn't love me anymore she didn't even want our son. She told me that she needed to go and find herself and that she wanted me to keep our son so she could be on her own for a little while. Of course I keep our son, because I loved him so much and there was no way I was going to give up on him for the way things had turned out between me and her. But needless to say ....
With of all the problems we had and me still having hope after she left we can still find a way to keep fighting, It completely broke my heart when I had to find out through a friend she was already in a relationship with another person 2 weeks after we separated. To make things ever more hard, She wrote me a letter 9 months being separated that she was pregnant by the person she was dating. All this time (by law) we were still married. But that was it for me. I still didn't want to accept it, But I knew in my heart, Weather I liked it or not, the marriage was over.
So I just completely give up as well and focus all my time and energy on my son.
I left our house in Cedar Creek and move to a small apartment in Austin.
Mean while, she didn't talk to us every often (I'm guessing she was busy with her other family)
We finally got divorced June 21st 2010. But even though she completely moved on with her life she still fought in divorce court saying I owed her half of everything. (that's why the divorce took so long to become final). The sad thing is she wasn't fighting for our son. She was fighting for the money and the house and land and etc. She wanted half of all that. Thank goodness she didn't get what she was asking for. Unlike her, I didn't really care about the house or the land or the money. My number one priority was my son. That was who I was fighting for. For the money and the house and etc, I didn't care much for it, I just didn't want to see her get it. Might sound mean, But that's how I felt about it.
I am happy that the Judge saw things in my favor. I got custody of my son and she just has visitation rights. She is kind'da pissed because the court ordered her to pay me child support and 50% of all his medical cost. She didn't leave empty handed though, the Judge awarded her $20,000. All I can say now is I just hope she enjoys it, because that's all she will ever get from me.
My final thoughts about it all is I really wish it didn't have to get as dirty as it did. In no way did I ever wanted things to turn out like this. I wish things ended on a better note, But I am just glad it's over and we both can just get on with our lives.
A Start to my Blog
Hello to one and all. For starter, I just like to say thanks for coming and reading my blog. I am sure that there is much better things to read on the internet. So I just like to say thanks again for taking the time to read my thoughts. I write a lot (in journals) But this whole Blog thing is kind'da new to me so I hope you bare with me while I keep working on my blogs. I have lots and lots to tell.
Writing for me helps me release a lot of my stress and I've actually been writing since I was a young boy. It's always been easier for me to tell my feeling to paper then just talking to someone. I'll try out this blog writing and just see how it goes.
My name is Jacob, But pretty much everyone knows me as Jay. I am sure from the pictures you see on my profile, I have scars on my face and body. I was burned in an oil fire at the age of 4 in west Texas in 1978. Long story short, I was just in the wrong place at the wrong time. My dad worked in the oil field in West Texas and at the time, I was a daddy's boy and always wanted to be with him. He owned his own truck and many times I'd go with him and sleep in his sleeper on the truck while he worked just so I was able to spend more time with him. It wasn't my dad's fault that I got burned, But he always blamed himself for many year for what had happen. I believe now, it was not his fault it was just a freak accident.
But as you might think I did have a pretty rough life growing up. I was burned 78% of my body. It's hard to live in the world when you look completely different then other people. People might not mean to, but you always get treated differently. Sometimes it was good but most of the time it was bad. Going to school was a really hard time for me. Kids can be very mean sometimes so in school, I always had a lot of stress. It's probably why I never ready did that good in school. Of course, I totally regret it now. I wish I could go back and redo it all again with what I know now.
From age 4 through 21 I was always at the burn hospital in Galveston Texas. I spent a lot of time there for the first 12 years of being burned. I had surgeries after surgeries after surgeries. Because me being at the hospital a lot, I did missed out a lot with my schooling. Of course I did get a lot of my schooling from inside the hospital, but it wasn't the same as being in a class room full of other students.
Sometime I do wish I looked normal (no scars) and things might be different (in a better way) BUT ... Regardless what had happen in my life, weather good or bad, I strongly believe EVERYTHING happens for a reason. Who am I to question the higher power. Instead of always asking why this had to happen to me, I figure it's better to just accept it and move on. So that what I've done. Of course me believing this didn't happen over night. It took me a long time to accept it. As of today, when I look in the mirror, I see me for me. I can see past my scars and see the person I want to be.
In a lot of ways, I wish others could see me how I see me.
It's really hard meeting people for the first time because first impressions are everything. And when people see me for the first time, (I don't believe people mean to) But they see the scars and don't REALLY SEE me until they spend a little time with me and then they realize beyond the scars I am just like everyone else. That why I'll never be a part of a "Love at first sight" kind'da thing, and it's OK. I've been told it's way over rated any how.
My dream it just to meet my soul mate that can see past everything, and just love me for who I am. Someone I can grow old with and live a happy life together til the very last breath I take. Is that to much to ask for?
Well I'm now going to turn 37 in a few month and I'm still out here searching for my one true love. Hopefully I'll still have time to find her. I will never give up hope.
Writing for me helps me release a lot of my stress and I've actually been writing since I was a young boy. It's always been easier for me to tell my feeling to paper then just talking to someone. I'll try out this blog writing and just see how it goes.
My name is Jacob, But pretty much everyone knows me as Jay. I am sure from the pictures you see on my profile, I have scars on my face and body. I was burned in an oil fire at the age of 4 in west Texas in 1978. Long story short, I was just in the wrong place at the wrong time. My dad worked in the oil field in West Texas and at the time, I was a daddy's boy and always wanted to be with him. He owned his own truck and many times I'd go with him and sleep in his sleeper on the truck while he worked just so I was able to spend more time with him. It wasn't my dad's fault that I got burned, But he always blamed himself for many year for what had happen. I believe now, it was not his fault it was just a freak accident.
But as you might think I did have a pretty rough life growing up. I was burned 78% of my body. It's hard to live in the world when you look completely different then other people. People might not mean to, but you always get treated differently. Sometimes it was good but most of the time it was bad. Going to school was a really hard time for me. Kids can be very mean sometimes so in school, I always had a lot of stress. It's probably why I never ready did that good in school. Of course, I totally regret it now. I wish I could go back and redo it all again with what I know now.
From age 4 through 21 I was always at the burn hospital in Galveston Texas. I spent a lot of time there for the first 12 years of being burned. I had surgeries after surgeries after surgeries. Because me being at the hospital a lot, I did missed out a lot with my schooling. Of course I did get a lot of my schooling from inside the hospital, but it wasn't the same as being in a class room full of other students.
Sometime I do wish I looked normal (no scars) and things might be different (in a better way) BUT ... Regardless what had happen in my life, weather good or bad, I strongly believe EVERYTHING happens for a reason. Who am I to question the higher power. Instead of always asking why this had to happen to me, I figure it's better to just accept it and move on. So that what I've done. Of course me believing this didn't happen over night. It took me a long time to accept it. As of today, when I look in the mirror, I see me for me. I can see past my scars and see the person I want to be.
In a lot of ways, I wish others could see me how I see me.
It's really hard meeting people for the first time because first impressions are everything. And when people see me for the first time, (I don't believe people mean to) But they see the scars and don't REALLY SEE me until they spend a little time with me and then they realize beyond the scars I am just like everyone else. That why I'll never be a part of a "Love at first sight" kind'da thing, and it's OK. I've been told it's way over rated any how.
My dream it just to meet my soul mate that can see past everything, and just love me for who I am. Someone I can grow old with and live a happy life together til the very last breath I take. Is that to much to ask for?
Well I'm now going to turn 37 in a few month and I'm still out here searching for my one true love. Hopefully I'll still have time to find her. I will never give up hope.
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